Show 236 Screwed Up Again - Like I'm Supposed To

Not having a great time but I'm ok. Not like I don't have stuff to do but currently in that vortex of when is the other thing that I think is gonna happen?

And in the middle of the vortex are the old symptoms making a bum rush for the gate. 

So this episode is a bit more narrative. It is about an experience that I had when I though I was doing the right thing for me.

And it was. But I still ginned up an attack. 

It happened for a lot of reasons. Many of which I wrote down and then cut out of the show.

Want some of the truth?

Don't like wearing facemask. I do it. I'm even doubling up on it.
But my face and skin don't like it. I do it because it is the right thing for me and other people.

The fear of am I gonna catch it this time?

Did I need to do this? Could I have waited one more week?

What if I have another panic attack in the store?

There are dozens more but you get the idea.

One the one side you do the right things.

One the other side, all of the combustibles are gaining fuel.

What do you do?

The best you can.

If you need support contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-8255, the Trevor Project at 1-866-488-7386 or text “START” to 741-741.

Resources Mentioned: 

Courageous Heart Meditation — Loving Kindness Tonglen Practice video with Shannon Algeo

From What to Eat for Optimal Mental Health


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